Friday, 22 July 2005
Really do not know what to tell you on my first entry - what would you be interested in - there are so many Journals to pick from I have read a lot of them - and they take some beating. But let me take you back to when I was 40 - I had a test for cancer only went because my daughet was worried that she was going to have the test - so to keep her happy I said I would go with her. Very confident that I was A OK. but as things turned out I was not A OK - my daughter was I am very glad to say. When I was called back to the hospital and told I had cancer I dont know what went through my mind - I only know one thing I was positive that I was not going to die - the thought never crossed my mind. So within a fortnight I was admitted to hospital (remember I did not tell my family what was really wrong with me) just womens problems is what I said. Oh me of little faith- how I wish now I had confided my worries to them. but I told myself it was to protect them from any worry. Anyway I had the operation and after a couple of weeks was discharged - very weak and had a month at home very tiring - but in my mind I still knew I was not going to die- unable to do much - had a three month check up and found another lump - this time I had to have Radiotherpy 19 days straight off small tattoo at the site of lump this was so the radio-ologist knew where to aim the rays that would make me better - and better I am now - this is over 20 years ago - but I can remember it as though it was yesterday - so anyone with Cancer take heart from me as they have improved their treatment since then and the chance of surviving is much better now. But I am sure the state of mind you are in also helps - so much to live for = so much you do not want to miss.